Mainly just an update from my old journal, not much has changed.
So, here I go again. I apologize for the lack of updates and being slow at getting back to everyone. I've had a crappy time. My mom had skin cancer. Thankfully all her treatments worked out well, and she's doing much better.
Everything, I don't know, has been getting to me. Last week monday, I decide to spend sometime playing The Sims 3. So I start the game, play for about half an hour - then the power get's cut. -_- My first thought "Thanks ANC for keeping your 'romises' on improving our power resources." About half an hour goes by, and the power's back on. So I think it's safe, I switch my PC back on and play Sims 3 for 5 minutes, and the power goes off again. "Shit." -_-; So I didn't bother switching my PC back on when the power returned an hour later. Good thing too, we had 7 power failures in one day. That really pissed me off. Today I decided to defrag my PC, guess what? I think the hard drive is now damaged from all the glorious power failures.
Now I'm struggling with anxiety again (not from the power failures or anything, it always happens at random.) It started with me waking up at 8:30AM every morning, trembling and in a cold sweat. Now I'm sick. I'm tired of anxiety ruining my life, I need to grab hold of it, and somehow, just get it to go away. I'm scared of life. I want to stop being scared. I've always had problems with it throughout my life, and it just keeps getting harder for me to cope with. Plus I can't drink my usual calming chamomile tea without vomiting. I feel bad for always talking about my health on here, I'm sure eveyone is tired of reading it.

Now on another topic. Yes, I'm sad that Michael Jackson's dead, but you know what makes me even sadder? That in this cruel world, you have to be dead before you're fully appriciated! You know what I'm on about. Before he died, people didn't feel an ounce of guilt illegally downloading his music (thus, killing the music industry). Now the moment he's dead, everyone goes on insane shopping trips, BUYING his CDs! >_> I believe in supporting the artists you like. If you think that's stupid, think of this, would you like it, if you made a CD and didn't make a cent on it cause people would rather download the music illegally than support the artist? That is trully sad.

I can't think of much else to say today, I just hope everyone is doing well, and I miss you all.

Anyway, I'm going to lie down, I'm really lightheaded.

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